The Pursuit of skinnyness.

my WORLD is BETTER when i'm SKINNY. (UGW: 43)

I’m back

Lost control of my weight over the past 3 years and now I weigh the highest I’ve ever weighed in my life. People say losing using unhealthy methods is temporary but it’s the only way that seems to work for me. Restricting my caloric intake and cardio to get back my body.

Remorse

I was thinking back to when I was younger… Man I was a bitch to people to cared about me.

Now, I wish they were all here. But I did all this… I pushed them away and I’m paying for it with my loneliness and regret.

I’m so sorry… And thank you, for loving me and caring about me when I gave nothing back. I was young and naive, but now I know.

I’m wondering if I’m ever going to find anyone to care for me again…? We’ll have to see. At least I have the memory of being loved to reminisce on a cold, rainy night…

Just like tonight.

Food poisoning - it’s hell but at least it makes me not eat.